New Moon, New Beginnings...

I have recently taken up what one of my friends described as a "new hobby".

• It is definitely a result of wanting something to focus on

• It is definitely a result of finding new purpose

• It is definitely a result of aligning my spiritual path

• It is definitely not something I ever previously considered

To give you some background;

As a teenager, my cousin and I were really into anything "witchy" - we used to buy incense (it was the 90s), dream catchers, spell books, candles - basically anything a 14 year old could afford, relating to 'witchcraft'. I was fascinated by it. Another friend of mine at school claimed to read tarot cards. And we definitely used to play "stiff as a board, light as a feather" and attempted some badly homemade Ouija Boards. These fascinations probably lasted a year or so before it faded to some other hobby.

During this time I read a book about dreams and how to train your psychic brain - part of this was to focus on remembering your dreams - keep a dream diary the minute you wake up, and learn to control them. I became very good at this. It also had a negative - nightmares terrified me. I could often step back into dreams and change the ending by thought control.

I started to occasionally have dreams that came true.

I remember the first time this happened; I dreamt it was snowing, when I woke up I looked outside and the garden was white.

Another significant time, when I was much older, I dreamt someone was pregnant. I told a friend the next day. Months later I found out they had been pregnant.

I had recurring dreams as a child - I used to fall from a golden spiral staircase and when I hit the ground I always woke up feeling like the lightshade in my bedroom had fallen on me. I regularly dreamt there were giant lego men and lego foxes outside in the garden banging on my bedroom window - I think actually I had this dream for the first time when I was 8 and had just moved into a new house. And I regularly used to have a dream that to this day I cannot describe, it was a feeling and a sense of smell - something stuck in my throat. I can visualise it every time, but I cannot describe it. This went away when I was about 16, and actually came back very recently (in my 30s). The dream comes maybe once a year, if I think about it, I can feel the feeling in my throat.

As I've got older my reoccuring dreams have changed, I ALWAYS dream about one particular relationship but often the person is blended into a different previous partner, and it's never a good dream, it often involves some kind of chase - often me doing the chasing, or a disagreement that gets aggressive. And after my Nana passed away suddenly in 2015, I dreamt about her almost every night for over a year. I was convinced she was visiting me in my dreams.

For as long as I can remember I have believed in fate. I guess this comes from my teenage years of starting to explore spirituality. I believe my dogs were put into my life to keep my alive. I believe my current relationship is with my twin flame and I could write a whole article on the fate surrounding that relationship (also premonitions that have happened).

As you know I have been battling anxiety and depression for a little while now. Having finally been able to lift the manhole cover on the black hole I was in, I am now in a self recovery journey and have learnt more about mental health in 2020 than I have ever learnt about anything before.

Somehow, and I literally have no idea where to pinpoint it, I decided I might start looking into crystal healing. Perhaps I was searching for calm. I have tried to meditate many times and struggle with my attention span, the same with mindfulness, so I don't know where crystal healing came from - but I do believe it's part of my fate path to explore this.

I was once told, just a couple of years ago, that my sense of empathy is so strong that if I tried hard enough I could tune in my third eye and develop psychic skills.

This was not new news to me. But it was reaffirmed by a psychic telling me this.

So when crystal healing popped into my head I decided to embrace it.

Unfortunately (?) with my OCD it quickly became an obsession, and I am now a proud owner of 2 crystal bibles, 17 crystals, 4 packs of incense sticks and some weird incense burning box...! I hadn't told anyone about my new hobby. I picked crystals based on which I was drawn to, and upon reading about them afterwards each and every one made sense.

Then an old friend came to stay, she knew about my battles with mental health, and had been a rock to me throughout lockdown, it was the first time I'd seen her for months. And she turned up with a crystal!!! I couldn't believe it. She had no idea that this was my new hobby. And yet she arrived with a Lepidolite crystal for me - ideal for healing anxiety, depression and insomnia. I slept with it under my pillow that night, and honest to god I woke up the next day with some pretty crazy clarity about the direction I wanted my life to go in. One week on and I have had the calmest, clearest week since the start of the year!!

This weekend, I learnt about cleansing and charging my crystals. I learnt that when buying crystals you have to let them chose you by feeling their energy. That the science behind them is that they come from the earth's core, where the magnetic vibrations are strong and powerful.

Whilst sitting at my desk this morning, I switched on my emails, and sat in my inbox was an email about the 'new moon' - not an email sender I'd seen before, or a subject I'd ever taken notice in before. But something told me to open it.

Tonight, is a new moon. A new moon represents new beginnings. A new moon is a powerful way to cleanse your crystals. A new moon is a great way to set some intentions and work with the crystals to achieve them.

So tonight I will be conducting my first ritual. Using Selenite, Citrine and Moonstone.

Whilst I have been on this journey into self discovery for a while now, I believe this is my turning point, for many, many reasons. It's my new beginning.

There is a part of me that wonders, has my anxiety and OCD latched on to something as an escape. But then another part of me says, if it makes me happy, then why not. I see it as a religion - if I choose to believe in it and it's higher powers, to bring me comfort, then why not.

And you know what, I will be sure as hell channelling my past 14 year old self and desperately hoping my psychic abilities kick in. What a gift that would be. My purpose, my reason to be here on earth.

Oh yeh, did I mention that I also found out this week that my blood type (which is super rare) is also considered the blood of an alien and most people with this blood type have psychic abilities. Oh, and also, I found out last night, Pisces (me) also have the tendency to be incredibly intuitive and more likely to have psychic abilities.

And one last thing - I've been reading about 'angel numbers' (because I am forever seeing 11:11), and I looked at the clock on my laptop because I was feeling tired, and it's 00:00 - I pull up my article on angel numbers on my phone to see if it has a meaning...guess what it is....

"NEW BEGINNINGS"